thank you sonita(:

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i am not wonderwoman
dont expect me to be happy everyday.

have had enough of tolerating,
you have been stealing everything.
ive lost much,
cant afford to lose more.
please dont do this to me):
i am sick and tired.
really.

i am sorry.
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i hope you all understand.


its hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go,
its hard to force that smile when i see my old friends and im alone,
still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret but i know
if i can do it over
i would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken..

what hurts the most-rascal flatts.

went out with sabrina and claudia today(:
was supposed to buy my dress,
but i brought home nothing you know!
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so tired somemoreeee.
wear skirt no good.


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why?

omg, yesterday guides session so funny(:
god, so fun(:
haha, it ended off funny too!!

sec3s guides are so funny
haha most of them anyways(:
:D
awesome mawsome!
i love love love guides like madddd.
and and tmr guides(:
patrol corner games and singing session!
singing session half an hour you know!
i am gonna sing my lungs out!

i am very very excited i dont know why.
sec1s coming in tmrr..
i hope my patrol get niceeeee jnrs(:
oh, yes.
i practically embarrassed myself totAlly on wed in front of all the sec1s la.
who is the awseome person who wanted me to write CHARLENE TEO SI MIN with my butt huh.
somemroe must face different irections.
who ah who ah( hint hint!)

haiyoo);
terrrrible.


hehee, blow wind blow!
blow all those who are preetttty((:

i am blown away!


yayayayyy(:
i shall go off now(:
i shall not let anyone spoil my goddamn good mood tmr.
no, you shant.

hello!
i went out with my mummy on satttt!
it was productiveee okay!
i bought a dress you know!!!
a DRESS YES A DRESSS!!
haha i am gonna buy more dresses in futureeee.

dresses are preeeeeeetty.
hmm, there goes my saturday you know!
and therefore, having to push back my tuition to next week.
and i have a buying clothes date with sabrina too):
this is saddd.

and my sunday, weeel.
was spent reading my jodi piccoult book which is terribly niceee.

hmm, its almost feb. like so fast.
very very scarry.
i dont like sec3 life still.
but i have been quite a very good girl(:
i havent copied any homework and i have been doing my homeworkk.
and sleeping early tooo!
but then, its just the starting only.

but my resolution for this year is to do my homework without copying!
yeaaah.

i am in a good mood now i dont know why.
i am kiddding.


oh very important!
i have awesome seniors who are extremely very cute and funny.
omgoodness, they are damn funny!
thank you!
they made my friday morning a happy day(:
be jealous people, cuz you dont find them in other ccas(:

i sand majula loudly and recited the pledge and sang the sch song like how we did it in primary 1 on friday(:
loud, chripy and cutee!

i really wish we were back to last year.
2009.
2010 is ):, afterall.
as much as i am trying not to show.
i am sick and tired of missing everybody.
sick and tired of not being in control.
sick of how we were once so close.
i am really sorry to all the things that went wrong,
how quicky everything fades away,
is it me? or is it how things are meant to be?
sorry for leaving you out,
sorry for the unanswered questions,
sorry for all the mess that wre caught in now.
really.sorry.
i dont know what to do,
nobody to trust.
would it remain this way?
i dont have the courage to face all of you..
):cant i get the best of both worlds?
does it mean that i have to sacrifice either one?
i dont want to.

things are getting out of hand,
you think i am enjoying all this?
no i am not.
i cant believe this is how it turned out.
maybe its time to stop.
cuz i havehad enough.
if pleasure means giving others unhappiness,
then sorry first.
because this wont come to a happy ending.
twice in my life,
i wont commit the same mistake.

realised that too much bitching
makes you a bitch.i think i am one of them.

oh yes.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMINNNNN!!

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY!

HAHA, ALL THE TIMES WE HAVE SPENT TOGETHER DANCING BALLET
(WHICH WE DO SO SO PRETTY WELL)

HAHA, AND THE TIMES WE FOOL ARND TOGETHER,
GOSSIPING, LAUGHING, COMPLAINING, YEAP IT WAAS REALLY REALLY MEMORABLE.

YOU MADE MY GUIDING LIFEE SO MUCH MORE VENTFUL MY DEARRR SIMINN(:

AND YOUR SISTER,, I WILL TAKE CARE OF HER OKAYY. DONT WORRY ABOUT HER. I WILL GIVE HER CLOTHES, SO THAT SHE S NOT OBSCEN AND MAKE SURE SHE GROWS SOME TEETH SO THAT SHE WONT SHRIEK SO LOUDLY AND SCARE YOU. HAHA, THEN WHEN ITS OUR SEC4 FAREWELL I WILL RETURN HER TO YOU I PROMISE:) SHE MUST BE FOREVER WITH YOU OKAY, CUZ ME SONITA AND CLAUDIA STUFFED ALL OUR LOVE INTO HER. THATS WHY SHE SHRIEK SO SO LOUDLY YOU KNOW. ITS TO EXPRESS OUR LOVEEEEE.

and the rest of the things to tell you, its alr in the letters okay!(:

Yesterday was awesome much much many many!(:

went out with my dear dear guides people,
sabrina claudia simin sonita rouhui hazirah rachel!!
haha we wanted to give simin a surprise party,
which wasnt surprising in the end, but blissfully, simin didn realise hehhe.

haha, so we waited forever for simin in school, then we went to crash pp kfc(:
kfc is like our place every after camp and everything!

haha, then we went douby ghaut!
so, we haven buy like presents and cake for simin yet,
which is sad but nevermind(:
we started to go missing and then we went to buy simin's cake.(claudia and sonita)
haha, then me and sabrina disappeared to buy the presents.
we bought her a sexy shrilling lady, which is really amusing and cute and loveableee.
(haha we didn notice on the label that its for ages 16 and up):D

hmm, soso, we went outside the plaza there and then we blindfolded simin there.
haha and we sang happy birthday the loud cedar way.
and of coursem attracted alot of people on the wayyy. hehe, they got free show!!

hmm, after tht we went walking around(:
and took many many pics!!
haha then we went home.

it was damn funnnnnnn with you guys i tell you!
i have never seen a bunch of so crazy wacky funny people in the worldd.
i love you guys many many manyyyy!!

:D

hello mello(:
its monday again.

hmm, i reallyreally like history lessons i realise
miss lizah damn nice la!

hhah, i was looking at the sentosa resort thing now!
its really cool okay, theres like a lot of new openings and a lot cool stuff in the amusement park.
haha, i dont know why its called amusement park,since i dont find it amusing at all..

theres one ride, damn cool. its like this cool.


Jurassic Park Rapids Adventure™
Premiering in Singapore
Featuring a white water raft system, thrill-seekers on circular rafts will be tossed on waterways within the Jurassic compound, where prehistoric creatures roam free.

it reminds me a bout the perak whitwater thing okay. its really cooll/.
i will be the first person on it heh.

another onee. i like also. so exciting.

Battlestar Galactica:
HUMANBattlestar
Galactica: CYLON
Premiering in Singapore
Themed after the hit television show Battlestar Galactica™, the world’s tallest pair of dueling roller-coasters will propel thrill-seekers on several inversions, a zero-g roll, a Cobra roll, corkscrews, vertical loops and near collisions mere inches apart.

isnt this coooll. its breathtaking okay! i want to rideee.

still have:

Revenge of the Mummy™
A high-speed psychological thrill ride through sharp turns, full rotation and fast reverse, you’ll be fighting against fiery fireballs, flesh-eating scarab beetles and an army of merciless warrior mummies — all in total darkness.

haha this is like quite gross, my type. but seriously okay i am really looking forward to it la. all in total darkness somemoree.haha nightwalk i alr scared until like shit, i wonder this will be what la.

then have other parts of the universal studios thats cool too.
like the marine life park.

Marine Life Park(Opening after 2010)
Dive into the aquatic world and get a chance to interact with dolphins, snorkel with rays and come face to face with some of the ocean’s most fascinating creatures.
Set to be the largest oceanarium in the world.
Venture into a wading pool for some intimate interaction with reef fishes, or learn about the wonderful but depleting coral reefs. . The lushly-landscaped Marine Life Park will comfortably provide a top- quality entertaining and educational outing for visitors, kids and adults alike.

omg, damn cool
anyways, i recently had a stroong urge to go diving and snorkelling when i grow up. haha cool right. i want to scale mountains too. you know theres a baden-powell mountain? i want to scale it then i can carve cedar guides into it hehe! very cool!

haha, i am still amazed at the resorts in sentosa. hoho(;

hmm, i am boredd noww.
haha i shall go off.

(:
first couple of days..

okay la.

teachers are mostly nice, class is okay too.

haha, my class is 3iYo!

so cool right!

hm, stayiing out of class matters this year.



it feels weird being a sec3.

i dont want)):

sec2 sounds so much better,

i miss 2c too.

it doesn feel quite right.

heard so much about the maga stress and everything.

kinda scared, plus chinses os is like starting after june hols.

i need that a1 man.

no more go fly kite during chinese anymroe..



guides tomorrow(:

theres horseshoe and stuff.

i really hope that we dont get yelled at again...

): and then we will all be so sad

no patrol corner):

and wheres that patrol challenge??



oh haha, i want camp challenge lunch!

simin fantastic idea!!!

i want i want!

aiyo, so scary.
i think we will all be so busy soon.

then farewell will coome))))))):
the sec2s better do a good job man.

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

HAHA, I AM SO LAZY TO DO DEDICATIONS THIS YEAR);

HM.
2C,
you all have been so awesome(: no words can describe how much i love you all and how much i am gonna miss 2c. those wonderful moments which we have shared, from fiesta all the way to class outing. being the asst monitress was tough, but it was worth it for you all(: wehave been through so much together as a class, bonded since sec1 and i could literally see all of you all changing. becoming more outspoken and everything. we rock as a class, even though we might not win best class, but you all are the bestest class that i could ever had. i love you guys all so much!

sec2 guides,
i am so glad theres no such things as changing guidesmates. you all have been one bunch of aweome guides. you all are teh best level i could ever which for, SERIOUSLY. we have been through so much together. one of the most memorable was farewell planning. it wasnt exactly a success, but it really bonded us together. it made us so much closer after that.farewell 2oo9 is over, i think we all have done an awesome job whether the rest liked it or now. but all i know is we have gone through itand got so much stronger after that. we learnt a lot too. then all the overseas trip that we went for, melacca, perak. and the camps, tkps, annual camp. i could see all of us changing. becoming more outspoken in guides and everything. i feel very happy(: i think i have changed a lot too. last year i very serious then i duno how to have fun. this uear after farewell i have learnt to let go and then see things from a diff point. i really leearnt the true meaning of enjoying guides, instead if slogging hard for guides. after each camp that i have went for, i feel that i learnt a lot more. take tkps, it was truly wow. i never expected that the sec2s could run a camp that smoothly with few glitches. anyways, i realise that i sound very ... not charlene. so i should stop. but then all i want to say is you awesome sec2 batch never fail to make me smile(: i cant imagine what i will do without all of you here. i love you guys!
wah i never knew i could be so knowlegeable!

HAHA, OMG.
THIS IS FUNNY I SWEAR.

★claudia(: says:
oh you know,
i eat a lot today can.
like a lot!
keep on eating:X
heh,i dont know why tooo,
SABRINA says:
hahahahahahahaahhah
;D
charlene(rocks) says:
HAHAHA
ME TOO
BUT THEN FOR MY MEALS
I NEVER EAT RICE OR NOODLES
★claudia(: says:
heh,
charlene(rocks) says:
I ATE BAKKWA LEH
★claudia(: says:
i keep on eating noodles,
charlene(rocks) says:
AND THEN STIILL HAVE ALOT OF CHOCS
HAHA
★claudia(: says:
reject rice!
charlene(rocks) says:
HAHAH I DIDN EVEN EAT NOODLES
I ATE JUNKIES
★claudia(: says:
chocolates:D
SABRINA says:
bakwwa
charlene(rocks) says:
HAHAHA YA
SABRINA says:
isit like some
charlene(rocks) says:
MY PARENTS BOUGHT
SABRINA says:
traditional medicine?
★claudia(: says:
hahahahhahah!
charlene(rocks) says:
ITS THE CHINESE NEW YEAR THE BBQ PORK
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHA
★claudia(: says:
ttraditional medicine!



HAHAHA ISNT IT FUNNY? OMGOODNESS.

Annual Camp 2009-the best way to end the year.

annual camp was memorable. really. it was eventful and fun and well.

First day

hmm,lombanged claudia into the sch at 630 cuz we were supposed to do our last min stuff and everything. turned out that many people were there. hmm, we had tentpitching. i was actually looking forward to it actually.then the grd was so muddy. but nevermind it was okay until we had to move to the muddier grounds): but the sec3s were so helpful at least(: cleaning the tents was crap, but the fault is really not yours seriously.i never felt so good when simin told ..i feel so sad, its like TKPS camp repeating again. those times when we did so much, rough it all so much, and so little sleep and everything, and not even get a thankyou. wasnt even creditted): this time it was worse.
anyways, campfire. i am so thankful that my patrol didn screw the performance up man. i would cry if it was screwed la. claudia and me spent the whole day writing it and everything. and the props making day, how much effort we put it. i was so embarrased la, the bobochacha thing. and how i got stuck in the car, haha, so funny. i wonder where i got the guts from mann. at least we got best campfiree(:


2nd day..
highlights were beachcleaning, sandcastle, amazing race and NIGHTWALK! beachcleaning was tiring. but then the after of everything really made my day! sandcastle was cool. thanks for helping! then after that the sec3s were so sad. realised that nightwalk might be cancelled. HORRIBLE)): but amazing race rocked. its like camp challenge,esp the giant part.so fun. i think i get high when running arnd shopping centres and excuseing everybidy and jumping on escalators and rushing arounds and receiving weird looks. vroomies won first for sandcastle!(: and first for amazing race too. we were so sad for amazing race cuz we thought tht we are gonna be the last few.cheerrup patrol 5(: oh yes.

amazing nightwalk.
it was so so so so scary goodness gracious. to think that i will go first haha. and that we will laugh all the way. i could faint man. couldn choose our partners, and i partnered a sec1. so embarrassing. we were grabbing each others hand like big time. the alone part was scary,they made me sit infront of them for so longgg i could hear my heart beat against my chest. was concentrating on a piece of grass. goddd. then the reading story one also very scary. i didn even absorb the story la.and then the ghosts talk until so not like our sec3s, they act until so not sec3s too. the toilets ah, best. omgosh, the corpse that was on the floor, the ghost hangin on the wall and the ghost that fell out of the door. it was a miracle that i didn scream okay. i was so scared); at first i thought must cross over the corpse somemore. goodness. wah i was sweating like mad when i reach the ending point i tell you. horror. last time still say what we will just laugh and then be the first to go. tskk.oh and, we are not cliquish okay):
so sad, it had to be shortened. but at least it wasnt cancelled.could totally imagine it happening though. pheww.
my first ever nightwalk in guides. terrifying and memorable experience:D i think i 80 years old still can remember.


3rd day
turned out that there was no patrol challenge. so sad right. everytime also turns out like that): oh had yeoman.haha"the old troublesome lady"..damn funny.our school so stingy la.
hmm, had awards ceremony. tan simin got best camper!! haha,she deserves it! and sabrina got most helpful!! ahah, she shd have gotten the cute one too(:
camp ended):
haha, then we went to kfc( sab, simin, claudia and me). haha, we made a lot of noise there and created a din laughing and laughing at stupid and unglam pics we take. omgoodness. i am like laughing while saying this. then its damn funny la.haha, kfc is like our after-camp-meeting place. the four of us, that time camp challenge also. tkps also(at the school there i hink), now annual camp also.

foursome,
you all have been so awesome people. we are not cliquish okay. its just that we have gone through so mush together back in tkps. those who never go foor tkps will never understand how much we have gone through.all the times when we were being yelled at, those times where we were wrongly accused of yet there was nothing we could say, nothing that we coould use to defent ourselves. how helpless we felt. remember the doodling in the homeecon kitchen at 2am in the morning? it was that badd. and then it ended off so sadly, without reconigition to us,without any thankyous? it was those angry moments that brought us together and made us so close. i dunno how we would manage tkps without any1 of you there. knowing that theres something we could fall back on was comforting. same for camp challenge. all those times i thought i could never survive, but look. all of you guys were there. awwwwww. so its really not that we dont accept other levels, but we have gone through so much, we trust one another, we support each other too!!(: i love you all loads


vrooom vrooom pow!
heyy. you guys were one fantastic patrol! we rock annual camp(: even though we might not have won, but then we are the best in our hearts, i have never been in such an enthu patrol! sec1s, you all have to talk more and move faster alright(; but then you whole lot was so funny. haha, i am still amused at the " cause i jk wolf"... but we seriously rock. i am so proud of each and everyone of you(l we should have a camp patrol outing!


ah, done. i haven do my dedications and my pooja post.