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4:17 AM

January 16, 2010

i really wish we were back to last year.
2009.
2010 is ):, afterall.
as much as i am trying not to show.
i am sick and tired of missing everybody.
sick and tired of not being in control.
sick of how we were once so close.
i am really sorry to all the things that went wrong,
how quicky everything fades away,
is it me? or is it how things are meant to be?
sorry for leaving you out,
sorry for the unanswered questions,
sorry for all the mess that wre caught in now.
really.sorry.
i dont know what to do,
nobody to trust.
would it remain this way?
i dont have the courage to face all of you..
):cant i get the best of both worlds?
does it mean that i have to sacrifice either one?
i dont want to.

things are getting out of hand,
you think i am enjoying all this?
no i am not.
i cant believe this is how it turned out.
maybe its time to stop.
cuz i havehad enough.
if pleasure means giving others unhappiness,
then sorry first.
because this wont come to a happy ending.
twice in my life,
i wont commit the same mistake.

realised that too much bitching
makes you a bitch.i think i am one of them.