How much can a palm-sized heart hold before it explodes i wonder.



its amazing how much things change overnight, isnt it?




its terrible. i hate it. but i do think its right.



why, cant you understand for once?


theres so much in me, i think i am exploding.


i wish i never did come online today.


depressing.

how come i never did feel this way when i was in sec2??



cant we be friends without being in a clique?

i am computer deprived i tell you.
havent used commp for like ages/.
anyway, chem test yest.
screwed up like shittt.
i think the max marks i can get is like 5.
mann):
damn depressed):

hmm, i should stop thinking about it and concentrate on biio instead.
hist brought back to fri.
opther ppl finish on tues, i still must study.


guides on friday was nice.
footdrills was awwwww.
it was damn funny during debrief can.
we totally had to fight to talk, what is this.

aft guides, had talktalk.
what, farewell brought forward.
23april, my goodness.
suckss):
we must do a great great job sec3s!!
:D


man, got amaths tuition soon.
alone somemore, since esther got competition):
goodluck esther.
walau, 4hrs of tuition alone without anybody to talk to is pathetic.
i am gonna die.
i think i will be late.
i must studt bio after this.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.





wellwell, okayokay, byebye.

NCOOOOOOOO(:
heeeeeee. it was funfun. hmm, i like drills and pt and night. so cool(: cannot see oneee, then bangbang here bangbang there. still so cooling. hehe.

oh ya, sabrina you owe me 2 broken nails, and 2 scratch okay. i found another scratch heeeee. and about 1litre of sweat too. haha. for pulling the stupid panels out with my life okay.

haha had hist projj today for one whole freaking day you knnow. last time filming( i still cant pronouce this word properly, but wtv), got like 2 weeks etc. now what, 2 days then dateline can. so tiring i tell you. come back from my nco still must do hirt project. haha but it was funny.

i am trotsky, i will trot trot trot up to the sky. haha, trotsky trotsky! mann. still must rush and edit the video tmr. so busyy. no time study):

stupid ct coming. blehhhh. haha just realised that common test is actually my initials. nehhhh.

walau i am damn tired): its abt 1 alr. printing out my chem ws. mr chia give everyone neh give me): so sad.
thank you deseree for sending it to me! ily!

haha, okay mst go do ws alr. byebye!

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(:
JUSTIN BIEBERRRRRR:D

haha, anywayyyy.
hmm, past few day, okay la.

loads of hmk):
i cant cope with maths):
i dont like maths at all,
what sum and product of roots.,
like heck, know for what!


hmm, had campfire audition today,
so embarrassiing):
haha. but kinda used to that lahuh.

theres NCO tmrrr.
man, i cant find my red colour cool torchh.
):
remembered bringing it home aft annual camp.
ahh, annual camp(:
heeeeeeeeee. VVP nightwalk everythingg.
pleasant memoriesss.

then Thinking Day!
have you thought of me yett?
hah okay sorry, that was lame.

hmm, i am bored.
i gave in to temptation to use the comp
i haven do maths stupid hmk yet,
mrs chew gonns chew me up):
i shall wake uip early to do tmr.
though that really neh happens.


lala, heyheyhey, its thinking day!!!!

theres gonna be one less lonely girl!

byebye!

happy valentines everybodyyyyy!

thank you everybody for the presentss and letters! i like to read letters(: they makeee me smileeee and remember those times!:D

i love everybody!

oh ya gongxifaicai too!
haha, i went to my cousins place todayyy. so boringg. i gambled my 20 dollars alr and i was immensely bored. sucks right. my money): hmm, i think the only person who really enjoyed today was my daddy. he played majong for like 6 hrs consecutively. my mummy was bored cuz she dosent like to gamblee. and then in the end, i played with my nieces and nephews. haha, they very very cute and totally violent. haha, espp the girlgirl.shes so funny.

me: you know how to fight tavierr(his younger brother, my nephew) ah? how you fight?

natalie(niece): orh, you must boxboxbox and then kick his birdbird!

me: -shock-and then burst out laughing.

haha, so funny right. pure innocence. so adorable. i realised that i have a soft spot for little children.

hmm, then yest,newyear eve. went out with celest hazel pearlyn and shujia again. we finally got to watch our percy jackson! yayyy(: its aweesomeaweesome i swear. so niceee. its almost as nice as harrypotter. i wish my parent was a god. then i can be a demigod! isnt that awesomeee? then i can learn alkl the fighting!

haha, the day before yest i went out with them too, plus charmaine. hmm, we couldn get the movie tickets. so we walked arnd,and then we go watsons. and thenthen we went to do smthhhhh feminineee, haha. so funny i tell you. i could ahave died from it can.

haha then later i went to the riverhong bao place to watch the fireworks with my family. it is a yearly routine. my parents say that i have been there since 1. haha cool right. oh ya, then i took the vortex which is there i dont know why, with my brother. omg, it was the most scary experience i have ever went thru. its freaking scary okay. its this machine thing at the pasar malam that seats 4 people on each end. so the thing will actually spin very fast, like a mad ferris wheeeil, except that theres only 2 corners wheres theres seats la. then right the seat itself will revolve, thus you will be overturned while that thing keeps spinning. you can actually see the people like ants like that except tht i couldn really see anything cuz my specs must be take n off. i took it with my brother. who is so calm and composed. so right when the thing starts turning and spinning , i was so scared that i couldn help screaming like some mad idiot. unfortunately, i am the only one cuz the other people on top is a husband and wife which doesnt scream. and my brother also wont scream one. somemore right. at the top halfway when the thing is epinning like some crazy thing, he still can ask me what time=.=
haha when i came down from it my hands were litellay shaking my my legs were so weak that i had to hoild onto the railings for support. wah thank god i didn pee in my pants i tell you. scaryscaryyyy. but it totally relieves stress can. i scream until my lungs broke omg, its truly a verygood experience. oh ya then i watch the fireworks and then go temples to pray and then go chinatown at 3 in the morning cuz got major offeroffer. my mummy la! but really, there was so much discounts and everything. reachedhome and 4 plus.

hmm, the rest of my weekdays was lessons and more lessons. haha pooja is interesting, i like to singsongs with her. like baby by justin bieberr. i think i have fallen in love with justin bieberr. his voice espp, so cutee and so nice to singggg. his looks are okay too(: oh no. haha, but seriously i like babyyyyy. its so niceee and funny and never ever fail to make my day. listening to it makes me happy. yay.

oh and then got one day, cant ermember haha.which.went to tpy with claudia and sabrina to eat popeyes. i never eat before, didn know it existed. haha,i think we were making alot of noise inside the popeyes, due to certain funny reasons which i cant rem.

i am going my grandmas hse tmr. my mummy side one. its gonna be boring): i will bring hmk there to doo. and then the aunts and uncle will praise me say i hardworking.;D but seriously, i am not gonna spend my whole day there with nothing to do, since they dont even gamble you know. and theres no little cousins to play with too.


haha oay i am tired. i shall go sleep soon. it a longlong post. goodnight!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE CHEONG!

haha youve been great and all. thanks for being there for me when i need it. and you should totally stop worrying and thinking so much i tell you. haha, sorry for being a little belated): sorry! oh and sorry ive been so busy that we cant talk as often. school work doesnt allow): have fun in your TJ and good luck for everything you do, academics and friendships and everything alright:D i know you very sociable one, surely can make manymany more friends(;

hmm, and smile always and come back to cedar more often yeah. haha, the rest of the stuff i want to tell you, you alr know(: i love you and take careeeeeee. ps: happy vday and gongxifacaii!

hello(:
its saturday today.
weekends gonna be over soon):
isnt it saad.

weekends have never been so precious.
w-wheeeeeeee(;
e- eets the most important timee.
e-extraextera rest timeee.
k-kant you see how ipt it iss?
e-extra sleep time. yay(:
n- n everyone loves it.
d-dearest dearest weekends
s-superrrr!!

do you see how important it is now?
it is veryvery important.

anyway,tuition with esther today.
haha i was late):
sorry esther.
hmm, then we went to play playground with shanice(shes esther church friend, therefore my new found friend!)
thenthen we went to alj and ate macs.
and then daddy fetch me(:

so tired.
i just wrote another manito letter(:
but my mortal never ever take her letters.
theres so manymany in the manito box
making me a sad angel):
i dont think she will see this hehe.

yay(:
i have a spiderweb date with pooja on monday.
and celest too(:
i am happyhappy.
so long nev go out with them alr.

talking bout celest,
i am in the same NCO grp as her.
and rouhui toooo.
and liying and wanting and vigneshhhh.
all the nice people(:
looking forward to camping with them alrrrrrr.yay.

i am enjoying life the way it is:D
cuz life aint so bad(:
except for the fact that i haven done any hmk. but thats another thing.
weeelll, i am tired.
i shall go sleep now.
i will wake up early tmr and do hmk.
i have tuition again tmr):
sucks right. a maths smemoreeee,
boo):

went plazasing today.
made with love is awesome much(:
but the things there super ex.
went there to spend money,
which is a good way to relieve stress.

realised that me and pooja are really similar,
one day we shall have a screaming session.

lets see what will happen next.

whenre sad,
you shd go listen to sad songs,
cuz it will make you feel better.
it does.