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4:44 AM

March 4, 2010

i cant stand it anymore.
i really cant):

theres history ct tmr.
i am so stressed i cant even think clearly.
i tried to get clemenceau name into my head.
i really did, and all the treaty of versailles,
and the aims and everything,
i try, i really did.
but everytime i try, i think of my maths.

makes me wonder, whats the point of studying,
i tried so hard, i reallydid.
why?
why?

it makes me wonder,
whats up with you nowadays.
youre using it to rub in my face, you think i dont know?
you think i dont know that youre happy about it?
you think i dont?

so what if i fail my maths?
i make sure i get full marks for you to see, you idiot.
you act as if you dont care puhlease.
i hate it whenever you do that, you discontented fellow.
your tone and the way you treat people disgust me.
i feel like bring ing you to africa, but then again, you wont understand,
cuz you dont have a heart at all.
i hope you really can learn your lesson,

being with you is suffocating.
i cant breathe with you all around.
i hate it.
i do.

its funny how i can confide in people which i least expect to.
carin, beatrice.

celest too..

its heartwarming to know that theres many caring sec3 guides too.
people whom i thought i would never get close to:
hillary deseree, esp tj..
Tj makes me laugh.

guess times change, people change too.
i dont understand, i really dont.

i think my stress level is terribly high these days.
the amt of sadnesss accumulated these 2 mths is just abt the amt from the last 2 years.
you all dont understand. really.

my sad tablepartner, cheer up.